I have developed quite the baggage collection over the years. I feel like a Klepto-bellhop cramming more and more issues into my closet of despair. In 2013, maybe I will bury some skeletons forever.

When I rolled out of bed this morning, one word just wouldn’t leave me. “Amen.”

It was just sorta hanging there like a fog made of letters. It was still there after I mainlined my coffee, and whenever that happens, I drop what I’m doing, and I write. Or, since I write all the time, I change what I’m writing about. I know something is telling me to listen, something is saying, “you really don’t want to miss this.”

Amen is Hebrew, it means; “So be it”. It’s the best, it’s the only New Years Resolution worth making.

About 80% of the friends I asked said they didn’t believe in resolutions. I think that’s maturity speaking. I also think it’s because we become resolute about the wrong things.

I don’t wanna carry my issues and guilt around anymore. It’s heavy and awkward and takes up too much room on a plane. I just wanna live so far ahead of today, that I forget the things I didn’t like about yesterday. I want to kill the ghost of Christmas past and hang out with his brother Present, on our way to meet Future.

And Amen isn’t that little goofy mumble we whisper at the end of someone else’s prayer, it’s a high five after you win the super bowl except this time, your high-fiving God. For me, it’s leaving all the bags behind.

I wish Amen would take all the guilt. All the failed relationships. All the bitter words and jealous actions. But Amen isn’t Abracadabra, it’s faith. And I don’t think faith is the absence of guilt, true faith is moving forward despite what your leaving behind.

If your like me, you have failed more resolutions than you can count and it hurts so much that you don’t want to ever make another. If your like me, your guilty of making the wrong ones.

Learning Spanish, dropping 30 pounds, and paying of  six grand on your credit card debt is admirable. Admirable and impossible if your bringing every years failures with you into 2013. The ones you can’t forgive yourself for.

My New Years Resolution this years is to scream “Amen”, and really mean it this time. This year, I think I’ll stop bringing the past with me, and I think I’ll get the future that I want.

Will you join me?

New Years workout @ 10am

Strength:

Rest

For time:

“Partner up”

75-Clean and Jerk 95/135
*Four minute limit.

-recover 4 minutes

3-Weighted pull-ups 25/35
3-Strict pull-ups
3-Kipping pull-ups
AMRAP 4  minutes

-recover 4 minutes

30-Snatches 55/75
30-Snatches 85/115
30-Snatches 95/135
*Four minute limit

-recover 4 minutes

10-second L-hold
15-Grasshoppers
AMRAP 4 Minutes

-recover 4 minutes

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