I feel like trouble is a real person and that he stalks me. Trouble shows up when I exchange my discernment for easy trust. When I forget that every single time I trust another human being, even myself, I am let down. Yet every time I believe I am rewarded.
There are two ways I categorize people and the information they present to me:
1. Does not concern me.
2. I will test that theory.
Just because it doesn’t concern me doesn’t mean I don’t care. It means that I probably will never know the truth one way or the other so it just is. It doesn’t effect us, or you, or them, it’s a fact or an opinion I can’t really prove or disprove.
If I decide to test that theory it means I heard you loud and clear, and I most likely believe you. It also means none of me trusts you.
I developed this as a coping mechanisms for all the times I have failed myself and others while constantly being let down by those I love with all my heart.
Believing in everyone, stranger, lover, friend of foe gives me just enough compassion to live on this earth with horrible people doing horrible things just like me. Trusting in no one keeps me on my toes rejecting the false and fake, proving the relevant and helpful. It allows compassion when all we want to do is crucify.
I love my friends, I value every second with them, but if I trusted them I would live disappointed. The day I stopped trusting was the day I started to finally believe again, and belief is often the only thing keeping me together.
1-Power Snatch+2 Alternating overhead lunges+1 Overhead Squat
*8 Minutes limit
80′-Renegade walk 35/55
*Workouts are scored separately, but performed one right after the other.
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