A lot of us find ourselves unsure of the next step we should take. Where am I being led? Where should I go? Sandy’s words below resonate with all of us. If you have been unsure of CrossFit, or unsure of yourself, read below.
The following is authored by: Sandy
Over the years, my workout routine has consisted of sign up for a session, attend the first couple classes, and never return. Repeat every 6-24 months.
That was until May 2009 when I began attending Chastity Slone’s workout classes at The Avenue. I started going two days a week and every day that I went I felt scared and always finished last. It was because of my respect for Chas and her sweet and caring, yet also tough, way of training that I stuck with it and kept going back. With Chas being an avid CrossFitter, she often talked to our class about it, encouraged us to try it, invited us to the free Saturday and holiday WODs and, with limited equipment, designed our workouts to be as CrossFit-like as she could. I was intrigued and I attended a few holiday WODs. Those seemed “safe” since they were opened up to family members and anyone off the street who wanted to go. The WODs were tough but fun, and the people I met were welcoming, kind and caring. I knew it was something I wanted to be a part of, but I was scared – scared of not being good enough, scared of having trainers other than Chas, scared of quitting if I changed my routine from what I had proven I could stick with.
I began following Practice CrossFit on Facebook. For several months I read about CrossFit online, I read and learned from Josh’s blog, I asked Chas questions, I talked a lot about the Practice, about wanting more from my workouts, about wanting to join PCF, but I couldn’t make myself take that step.
On Christmas morning 2011, I opened a gift from my best friend: a six-month membership to Practice CrossFit. It is the one and only gift I’ve ever received that caused me to cry. I was overwhelmed that even though I couldn’t make the move on my own, he knew me and what I wanted well enough to make the commitment for me. I was excited to make the change and yet still very scared of not being good enough. I went to my first class on January 2, 2012.
I had been at PCF and around some of the people enough to feel fairly comfortable. I had been working out regularly for 2 ½ years and felt like I could keep up with most of what was asked of us. I remember the first week or two seemed fairly easy or at least not as hard as I expected. That didn’t last long and before I knew it the WODs were getting increasingly tougher. I quickly learned that it’s okay to modify movements and workouts. To some degree, I’ve modified every workout I’ve done since I started at PCF. In my mind I’ve been okay with that; I’m not in my 20s or 30s and I’m certainly doing a lot more and working harder than I used to.
Over the past month or so I’ve realized that I want more; I want to finish WODs without an (m) beside my time. It has taken me six months to realize that just showing up and doing the (modified) WODs 3-5 days a week is not going to get that (m) off of my time.
I’ve started going to the Endurance training twice a week. As much as I dislike running and struggle with it, I know it’s something I need to do to get better. I’ve joined two other women who’ve also decided they want more, and we do additional mid-line work each week. I’ve started WODing on Saturdays and strive for every day throughout the week. I’m working on being more serious about eating Paleo. I’ve talked with Chas about what portion sizes I should be eating and have begun preparing my meals in advance. If I said I’m successful at eating only Paleo I’d be lying, but I’m learning from Josh and Chas and I have the desire to be smarter about what I put in my mouth.
I’m still a long way from an unmodified WOD, but I know that if I work hard, eat clean and put in the time and effort it will happen. I often still feel scared, but I remind myself of the wise words trainer Kara Foster told me, “Be Scared and Be Better.”
(12) Minute limit
Bent over row
Close grip floor press
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