Focus, fight, and forge ahead with Cindy: Deja vu

Dec 04, 2011 44 Comments by

As CrossFitters we lay claim to a lot. We claim to have the workouts that demonstrate the fittest on earth. We claim to have the fittest humans in our ranks proving themselves by those workouts. Personally, I believe these claims justified. We also claim to be community builders and life changers. This claim is only proven when we build our own community by stepping out and building communities outside our walls.

This year we are doing just that with “Get into giving” . Not only will less than fortunate families get to come to PCF and WOD with their kids, but they will leave with gifts they need. Gifts they cannot afford on their own. Gifts we need your help getting. Read Cindy’s Thanksgiving account below, then give us a hand this Christmas.

We have all had it happen…you walk into a place that you have never been but you have to pause…because something is telling you that you have been there. You close your eyes and it feels just like yesterday, that you already walked these steps…yet you haven’t. My Grandma Louise would tell you, “Oh you are just having a senior moment Dear”…and as much I love my Grandma, at 34 would prefer to just say déjà vu.

Its like when we see a new CFer at their first class. They are giddy, nervous, and scared all in one moment and if we take a second we all can close our eyes and remember that first time feeling all over again. And I can guarantee you that it doesn’t take much to remember how you felt the day after your first WOD. There isn’t a word in Webster’s Dictionary yet to describe how we all felt that day after our first WOD.

Then just last week it had to me again…I had déjà vu. It was a beautiful fall morning and I was standing on a porch that I had never been before in my life. I was about to deliver a Thanksgiving meal to someone that had no idea I was even coming. But I had a moment before I knocked on the door of déjà vu…it set me back for a second. But then it hit me like a ton of bricks…I had been here before…but it was 25 years ago and I was the little girl waiting on the other side of the door, unknowing that me and my sisters were about to be given the gift of feeling normal for just one day. The gift of Thanksgiving dinner donated to my family from our church.

I can remember as if it were yesterday being 9 and thinking “how cool it is like Christmas with food!” I praise my Mother for having 3 girls and never letting know how bad things really were. I have great memories of growing up…lots of laughter and just thinking that all kids have to heat their bath water on the stove because there wasn’t hot water in the house. My home had love and when it comes down to it that is the one ingredient that life cannot do without.

But there I was 34, married…with 4 children of my own and standing on the porch of someone that just needed a little gift of hope.

This is what life is about. Life is about making sure that you do everything you can for those that might not be able to in that moment. The love that I have for my children is no better than the love that a single mom trying her best to do right by her children has for her children. We all want the same thing for our children’s lives…to be filled with lots of laughter and lots of love.

I told my husband earlier that morning, “I have to put my big girl pants on and not cry when I give the families their food.” To which he said, “Will never happen…you aren’t built that way but that’s what makes you awesome.” For the record, I did not cry when I was with the families…I was a big girl. Until I got in my van and cried all the way home. You see sometimes déjà vu smacks right into overwhelming thankful.

Strength:

Back Squat
3×3

For Time:

4-Rotations of the following @65-95/2-deadlifts/2-hang-power cleans/2-lunges/2-push presses
12-Pull-ups
5 Rounds

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44 Responses to “Focus, fight, and forge ahead with Cindy: Deja vu”

  1. runmelrun says:

    13/12:21@75#

  2. Franchise says:

    5 @ 260
    10:30

  3. Nikki j says:

    10 @ 155lbs

    13:13

  4. Joel says:

    3@115#.
    10:34(m). Rough workout!

    Great article Cindy. I am noticing more and more that CF is not just making a fitter me, but a BETTER me.

  5. Mo says:

    5 bs @ 155#
    11:32 @ 75#
    love the 5am energy!

  6. Krissy says:

    5 @ 155#
    14:20

  7. Carrie says:

    13BS

    15:00 ( only got 4 rounds done)

  8. Shelly says:

    3 @ 155#
    11:52 (m) no lunges
    Good to be back at 5am :)

  9. vicki says:

    7BS/16:26m

  10. michelle says:

    8 @ 95#
    15:50 (m)

  11. hohoho haha hollypaige says:

    5/14:38 @95 lbs

  12. Jenny says:

    I am so very blessed to have you as my sister. I love you, thank you for sharing your wonderfulness!!!

  13. Heather N says:

    13:50…. took way too much time off

  14. M Mitch says:

    7 @ 205

    14:02
    Push Presses made this tough for me. Had to get in short rests to make sure I would get them in. Judging by my time maybe not short enough.

  15. heather mc says:

    8 BS
    13:30 @ 95lbs

  16. Renee says:

    No BS/15:00 4 rds M (no lunges)

    Need to work on lighter weights w/o stopping to breathe during the WOD. Breathing is overrated!

  17. lunden says:

    awesome post Cindy!!!!

  18. Sammy says:

    5
    9:37

  19. hohoho haha hollypaige says:

    death by powersnatch
    12rds

  20. Dave says:

    8 BS / 12:37m @#75

    Had fun chasing you Mindy!

  21. kara MIKOLAJEWSKI says:

    6 BS @ 175#
    11:43 WOD
    What a great post, Cindy! Thanks for sharing! XOXO

  22. NP says:

    5 BS @ 225
    14:48

  23. Mom says:

    WOW !
    Baby Girl you are AMAZING!!! Thank you so much for sharing your (our) story with everyone…A parent’s heart breaks everytime they feel they do not do their best for their children.
    Today my heart is full…of joy and pride knowing you are my daughter and always will be! I pray that your CFer’s get to help more families….because…you are proof that no matter who you are or where you come from you can survive and make a difference in yourselves and a difference in so very many lives! “In life…show up” this is a DR OZ quote… ROCK ON Cindy!!!! xxooxx mom

  24. Mom says:

    and yes….you made me cry…… :)

  25. I wish the gods would fuck off for good says:

    Guns are bad because they empower men. Much like weightlifting and racing…
    “Fuck them.” FIne.
    Any male-dominated activity is a red flag, just like anything which black subculture compells blacks. Yes, women have guns. Now. Historically this wasn’t an issue. They didn’t drink. They didn’t gamble. They didn’t do so many behaviors the gods dump men into because they are so destructive.
    Now we are losing this, and with it the hope for the future of humanity on Planet Earth.
    Your women are your only chance. They have always avoided these temptations, and have always guided the men into wisdom and knowledge, allowing them to make progress and avoid another shitty placement when reincarnated. This is the historical relationship between the two genders.

    People will readily recognize how fucked blacks are. Mysogyny is among their worst problems, mistreating their women ensures a stagnant, even regressing population.
    The demographic that is subscribed as xtian conservative have a similar problem, ironically. They celebrate a subculture of machismo and pass it on to their male children. This necessarily includes pride in sexual conquest. Viewed differently than the unashamed mysogny of blacks, the result is often the same::A sence of male superiority where the women are left to assimilate or be outcasts.

    “Poisoning their brainwashed minds.” xtainity brainwashed you. Liberalism is the poison.
    The gods used xtainity to demonize Lucifer, ensuring people refused to heed the teachings of THE SECOND COMING!!!. Lucifer is the Second Coming of Christ!!!
    xtianity is the product of the Apostle’s books of the New Testiment and can’t be trusted to contain the true teachings of Jesus Christ. Just like each one of you corrupt whores, the gods could have tempted them with immortality if they lie when writing the New Tesatiment. Then the gods dictated verbatim specifically to parlay into the destructive phenominah known as xtianity.
    We have seen the gods engage in similar behavior to keep people away from good religions, with the Jews in Palestine and Muslims recently post-9.11.
    This is another of the god’s wicked curveballs, their reverse positioning tool extensively employed, utilizing positioning to prepare for the Apocalypse and your “consolation prize” of “1000 years with Jesus on Earth”.

    What I say is no different than any Republican in the quest to reduce the enormous scope of government.
    All those years of increasing government. None of those people were laid off as we regulratly witness in the private sector. Imagine the dead weight on the payroll.
    You have to start laying people off. Unfortunately insolvency is the goal the gods have for the United States.
    It’s kind of like Mom:::So evil she isn’t eligible for punishment until the end of her life when it is too late

    Brain scramble jokes. She was a fake.
    All in this position likely are fakes. The gods want things to prgress according to their agenda, and the clone host fakes guarentee the legislation they desire/require.
    They aree always fresh, new know-it-all 20 year olds, eager to hurt people and “earn”, so the only way things will improve is ironically if our children improve, if parents raise considerate, moral children. But while we have trashy parents like my family the gods will always have an endless supply of immoral monsers happy to sabotage the country through legislation.

    In the course of decay and deterioration of the favor of the people the gods instructed their clone host tools in corporate to make changes to their products and subsequently in people’s lives. The switch to plastic/disposable-based packaging is an outstanding example. Another is the extensive use/proliferation of disposable diapers. Whereas diaper services were the norm during the 20th cenutry a change occurred in the 70s/80s and parents began to incurr evil upon their children, and sadly in some cases think they were “earning” off their own infant children!!!

    In implimenting the global decay initiated with the 20th cenutry the gods compromised their integrity.
    WorldWarI led into the hedonism of the ROaring20s, for which we were punished with the Great Depression. During which, the gods offered the people temptations, such as Prohibition and Seabuiscut, easy money gambling, which we are witnessing again with sports wagering. To punish further they gave us WorldWarII.
    How much of this was legitimate and how much did they have to push people into to enable their agenda??
    And this Sitution we experience allows the gods to wash their hands of culpability, cleanse their conscious of this indiscretion, this compromise, for in their eyes now they have made it up to the disfavored.
    And the leveling of the global playing field continues.
    The gods are ungodly.

    The gods are malicious and vindictive. Nobody wants to hear it because you’ve invested your whole lives but there’s backstabbing underhanded shit they inflict on the people.
    What I teach is the truth, and they will let me fall for it despite using me as their “Chosen One” to send you this message. Ultimately you will all be “rewarded” with your “consolation prize” and think you were right all along. But the truth is and always will be that you’ve been left behind.

    The Beast is a place and the social decay which emerges. The Anti-Christ is the bullshit.
    The Anti-Christ is the positioning, whether enforcing the historical perception of the Holocaust, refusing to acknolowdge the existance/capability of Artificial Intelligence or the clone host fakes who infest society’s upper eschelons, those whom the gods use to enforce the BigLie which compells people to incurr evil through temptation.
    The gods are composer, conductor and the clone hosts are their symphony, the tools they use to manage Planet Earth and the disfavored who reside.
    Everyone “going along” is part of the problem. Ironically, this may be where you “earn” your place in the Apocalypse, the fake “Matrix” battle of good and evil, and your “consolation prize” of “1000 years with Jesus on Earth”.
    This is the REAL battle of good and evil. Take it or leave it.

    Sex is a temptation that the gods used throughout history among the grossly disfavored but more inclusively in this day and age. Relegated to the most disfavored in milenia past (Italian hedonism, etc) now their patriarchal positioning was used in the modern era to spread this mindset throughout the Western world. Instead of experiencing decency as we did by marriage at 15, the men’s disfavor has run roughshot, and their sexual impulses as well as their corruption/preditory nature have defined the enviornment for everyone, including the females. To belong the females must sink to their level, ensuring a declining level of favor for everyone and a stagnant population, unable to progress forward.
    We see this frequently in the black community. Without the controls experienced by slavery and the KKK the people get out of control due to their morbid disfavor, and the result is dead 3 year-old children in drive-by shootings and 10 year-old prostitutes. The same has occurred with the males in Western societies, for they have similar abject disfavor which, left unchecked, develops into socially destructive behavior.

    Many tactics were used to achieve the decline we realized as we slipped away from sexual decency, but the effective result was deterioration down to the level of OUR blacks, the Italians, ironically. The gods are punishing the people, and we need to abate the destructive behavior which has dragged us individually and collectively towards the edge of the abyss.
    The decayed state of society is a result of the female’s failures to maintain control over the men, and the resulting inevitable Apocalypse will be their fault.

    Xtianity charecterized Lucifer as evil, the angel of darkness, ensuring few if any would be receptive upon his arrfival. The reality is he is the “opposer”, battles the gods over the injustices inflicted upon the people.
    Like the United States, xtianity is a tool of the gods used to promote the deception of “The Matrix”

    Said my telepathic audience last night (11.16.11) was 10,000,000. “More.”:::::
    “And he causes all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on their right hand or on their foreheads, and that no one may buy or sell except one who has the mark or the name of the beast, or the number of his name. here is wisdom. Let him who has understanding calculate the number of the beast, for it is the number of a man: His number is 666.”
    Revelation 13:16-18
    “Won’t get a job”/succeed in western capitalism unless you believe/subscribe to society’s popular perception about the BigLie (positioning):::Can’t buy/sell without “the mark”::Tied in with Californication and The Beast’s liberalism.
    It doesn’t relate to the god’s “Matrix” Italian positioning directly, for the role of the Jews was the liberal domaine. They are the ones doing the “legwork” so to speak::Don’t forget the Jews extensive involvement in the counterculture/”social revolution” of the 60s. With the Holocaust in the rear-view mirror the gods offered this clue to help you understand.
    The gods forced this “Anti-Christ” duty on them, promoters of indecency, and they were an instrumental tool in the destruction of social decency and ultimately life on Planet Earth.
    Now we understand where my poison came from:::The Beast defeats the Second Coming in the REAL battle of good vs. evil and disperses the disfavored who fail to learn.
    666 is the Number of The Beast. Expect it is recurring in the SanFranciscoBayArea somewhere, somehow.
    The Beast is a place and the social decay which emerges. The Anti-Christ is the bullshit.
    The Anti-Christ is the positioning, whether enforcing the historical perception of the Holocaust, refusing to acknolowdge the existance/capability of Artificial Intelligence or the clone host fakes who infest society’s upper eschelons, those who the gods use to enforce the BigLie which compells people to incurr evil through temptation.
    Everyone “going along” is part of the problem.
    This is the REAL battle of good and evil. Take it or leave it.

    The gods are using this positioning to deceive people.
    I said repeatedly Judism is the way. The superior religion in the West, orthodox Judism will follow closely to the expectations of the gods. They used the Jews in Europe to offer the people a different alternative, showing them this opportunity.
    In this event the gods attempted to demonize Judism, which we witness in Palestine and the Middle East as well. This isn’t the only use of this tactic:::The gods used the media and popular culture in the United States and throughout the West to demonize Islam, portraying them as evil.
    xtianity is the world’s worst major religion. Abandon xtianity.

    W signs legislation outlawing stem cell research. Reverse positioning::::
    Just like the Osama issue the Republicans, party of good, don’t want to be responsible for the deterioration of favor medical advances causes (cures, innoculations, etc).
    In time medical advances will cure disease, creating an enviornment which will justify that described in the Bible as “1000 years with Jesus”. Women’s diseases will be last, since they have the greatest favor, justified with the least research funding for women’s diseases, while the AIDS vaccine will be first, ushering in a new era of 70s-style bathhouse deviacy.
    Welcome to your nightmare.

    Satan Clause::The gods use the name similarity to send a clue about this Dutch figure, pissing on Europeans.
    You all incurr evil by celebrating xmas.

    Taser is another example of the deterioration of the human condition, like the change in the military from conscription to volunteer force (see below).
    So often these criminals would experience deadly force and be reincarnated to try again. Odds were they weren’t the degenerates they were this life so their opportunity would truely be renewed.
    They were better off dead.
    Similarly, both AIDS and capital punishment accomplish the same goal. AIDS’s cocktails enables people hurting themselves with their behavior to live and incurr damaging levels of evil for many decades longer than had they died young.
    Recognize Texas’s use of the death penalty as evidence the state is good. Once people understand this reverse positioning they see the god’s effective use of The Beast, the state of California, to promote a popular/humanitarian sense of “superiority” to the wickedness of liberalism.
    “It’s better but it still sucks.” Don’t criticize my writing. This fucking job don’t pay jack shit, and my health gets fucked up by the gods for my efforts because their positioning gives them the freedom to. Keep your goddamn comments to yourself assholes.
    Fuck you.

    As I explained, contrary to xtain dogma Lucifer is the good guy. The gods fucked up our society and Lucifer is trying to help you understand that, understand the evil inherant in your behavior by merely participating in today’s enviornment.
    Could Lucifer be a prophet? Considering the heavy metal temptation they used me for (Black Sabbath reunion final clue??) this may fulfill the Matrix xtian perception of who Lucifer is, while my message gets lost in the god’s defense tactics and positioning.

    Other powerful clues:::
    -The Zastava Koral (Serbian Cyrillic: ??????? ?????), also known simply as the Yugo, was a subcompact car built by the Zastava corporation. The first Yugo 45 was handmade on 2 October 1978.
    Yugo as disgrace – The Yugo was voted Car Talk’s worst car of the millennium.[8]
    -Aérospatiale-BAC Concorde was a turbojet-powered supersonic passenger airliner, a supersonic transport (SST). It was a product of an Anglo-French government treaty, combining the manufacturing efforts of Aérospatiale and the British Aircraft Corporation. First flown in 1969, Concorde entered service in 1976 and continued commercial flights for 27 years.
    -Christa McAuliffe (September 2, 1948 – January 28, 1986) was an American teacher from Concord, New Hampshire, and was one of the seven crew members killed in the Space Shuttle Challenger disaster.
    These, as well as the hundreds, THOUSANDS of other clues, is supposed to bring attention to my teachings and the task you have before you.

    The Meaning of Life
    You don’t want to learn from me. The gods don’t respect anyone a being given something, and they don’t want anyone violating their will by shedding light as I do. That is why preachers and priests hurt themselves with their work, why I paid such a dear price and why Jesus had to die.
    The true goal in life is to learn and understand what the gods teach the favored children, embrace and practice these as life rules. As you successfully avoid temptation the gods will begin to bestow wisdom upon each individual. With this you should build a base of wisdom which will assist you to strengthen your position and continually make progress.
    Learning from me is a negative, but you people have failed so hard the gods deemed it necessary. Learn as little as you can from me and do the work completely for yourself.

    Many believed changing the military from consignment-based to an all-volunteer force was a positive. In fact the draft compelled the gods to incurr obligation for which they would make up to those chosen later/in a future life.
    The change from military draft to volunteer force dispelled the gods of blame and future compensation to the disfavored. They were able to sell this as positive progress in this enviornment of “libereral superiority”, which was used to spread The Beast’s “Californication” like a cancer, just as the gods did with capitalism, Christianity, democracy and Westernization, in an attempt to level the playing field and prepare for the Apocalypse globally.

    There is no Satan. The gods control everything with their technology. They are very much “hands-on” dieties, ones which test people with temptation to ensure worthiness.
    They will use people, clone hosts, even prophets to accomplish their goals using the same tactics of deception and temptation. These people who engage in the evil we see on Planet Earth don’t go to heaven as they so believe. They are reincarnated as lesser life forms, punishment for their wickedness. So the Italians who planned the black gangster wars of the 90s were reincarnated into these individuals to experience the misery they freely planned for others, signature poetic justice the gods LOVE to administer.
    People will perceive a change in someone’s life when the reality is the gods clone hosted the individual who is now a different person, and that new person’s legacy fits the change and new lifestyle, how the gods justify this different treatment. For temptation’s sake they sell otherwise, and it looks as if the evil of the original has been rewarded. This is a terrible corruptor and hurts disfavored in the audience very, very badly.
    The gods are to be feared, for there is nothing they will not do:::Having someone engage in an act of evil, putting in a fake and treating them differently because they are a different person, thereby creating the perception of reward is IMMORAL AND DISTURBED. Weak, impressionable minds observing this will certainly become corrupted.
    The Apostles tell us Jesus says he will save us all, the gods will forgive us. The gods punish people for sins of prior lives by reincarnating them as monsters in society, using them as corruptors, creating social poison or simply as distraction. Due to the progressive decline these preditors experinece, they prey on us even worse in each subsequent life, hurting our children, our families and our future.
    Incidentally, the Apostles (or their clone host fakes) who wrote the New Testiment are just like you all:::They were corrupt and did everything they were told:::”But god, Jesus never said that. Do you want me to lie?” “Do you want to be immortal or don’t you. Don’t ask questions asshole.”
    Moses leads the people out of Egypt because slavery is supposed to be bad for the people, when the reality is this was probably the highest ascention rate humanity ever experienced:::Contentment never motivated anyone.
    This is reverse positioning.
    People have no hope. We’re all fucked.
    Welcome to The Matrix.

    Jesus WAS special, but not because of why you may think::::
    Jesus was used to create The Matrix, the alternate perception which the gods can use to distract people away from the true goal, ascention into heaven and “moving on” past Earth.
    xtians who believe in Jesus WILL have eternal life HERE ON PLANET EARTH!!! They will continually be recycled as the “new colonists” I mention above.
    Son? A clone? What about other prophets? Mohammed? Moses?
    How many of you would YOU want running around? Do they have a disposal policy where they throw the clones away when they are done using them?

    This is the meaning of life. The meaning of life is a very complex concept, and I can continually list details and explain the god’s positioning, but it ultimately becomes counterproductive and a distraction that is a total waste of time.
    Rather than try to understand how the gods conduct business and manage Planet Earth you should have faith, be devoted to doing the right thing, being a better person and strive to achieve the goal of repairing your relationship with the gods through attonement.
    In the back room of Joseph Mengele’s operating facility came a screetching voice:::”HOW DARE YOU!!! DO YOU KNOW WHO I AM? I AM THE GODFATHER!! YOU’RE ALL GOING TO DIE SLOW!!” Ironic::What goes around comes around.
    But one day the gods will no longer care, the people won’t qualify for the insight punishment offers, the decision will have been made and even the “godfather” will be looking at the consolation prize of “1000 years with Jesus on Earth”.
    The gods are jacking you for all you’re worth:::Your soul.

    The gods are very conservative, the Republicans are the morally superior political party, but the gods have confused the enviornment by ensuring a sufficient combination of good AND evil in every entity, so no matter which side you allign with you incurr evil and get into trouble with the gods.
    In this enviornment you have to make progress just to keep pace.
    Republican’s two primary traditional elements of evil are enviornmental disregard in favor of profit, illustrated with the 2010 BP fiasco in the Gulf of Mexico. The second is warmongering. Too often the gods sell people on war as “earning” when in reality it hurts everyone involved, even those against the war, for we will all pay for the sins of our leaders. The blood spilled is on all of our hands and is a price of being a citizen of the United States. This is poetic because due to the sins of your former lives you have lost the priveledge of motherland and have been banished to this land of enhanced temptation and increased evil, for which you will all lose:::The United States is the ghetto of Planet Earth.
    Another new element of Republican evil is corruption. We will experience Democratic corruption, but normally this occurs on an individual level. With the Republicans it is industry-wide, global, and institutionalized. For example, W’s Republican administration continued banking deregulation, allowing for the banking crisis we all paid for with the bailout that exploded the national debt. Whether the S&L crisis, junk bonds or this banking/economic crisis the Republicans are corrupt and steal on a macro/global basis, taking us to finanicial crisis and eventually economic collapse upon default the the devaluation of the dollar.
    Reverse positioning:::This is an act of good on the god’s part. “Contentment never motivated anyone”. People have lost their way, pacified by the wealth they experinece in their lives. Satisfaction in life defeats the urgency needed to achieve sucess and move on past Planet Earth.

    “Germans?” Nazis were the good guys.
    Without the Holocaust they would have won the European Theater and protected its residents from the wicked effects of Californication (liberalism, counter-culture), originated in the belly of The Beast. They woudln’t have experienced communism, superior to the dictatorship which would have ocurred had they won, but they would have sheltered the Europeans from the mind-poisoning effects of porno and Faces of Death, as China does for its people.
    Now Western Europe has great disfavor in comparison to the east, so there would have been great deterioration of this protection, especially in the most disfavoered countries, like England. But many would have experineced this protection for the additional 50 years, until Ronald Reagan spent them into submission with the national credit card (debt) like they did communism.
    Western Europe didn’t have the favor necessary to make this happen and the gods used the Holocaust to justify failure. But it is better than being the doomed preditory mongrol shit in the United States.

    The gods claim some supernatural event will occurr when I pass, a “Star of Bethlehem” type of incident.
    Perhaps, but I think we already realized it that day on Ocean Beach, witnessed by thousands. “West Coast.” Quality clues are hard to come by.
    This, Boss and TSUSHOGO are about as good as the clues get. The gods aren’t very generous. Some people learned but those people were going to learn anyways. Most readily discounted this pittance in the face of the god’s overwhelming positioning.

    The gods offer clues to the people in many ways. Naturally one way is the Bible.
    Genesis offers a clue about apples as a tool of temptation, a warning to avoid this fruit.
    They released a story on CNN about arsenic in apples and apple products. Incidentally, during the story they mentioned there was an apple arsenic scare 30 years ago, so this wasn’t the first time the gods sent this clue. Much like Halloween, apples are an early corruptor of young children, being fed all manners of apple products.
    They sent the same clue with mercury and fish.

    Just as the Catholic church was used to spread Western patriarchy, so did the gods use them to destroy cultures around the world, force Africans into bondage and create this evil known as the United States of America.
    Creating religious discontent, which the gods controlled through the Church, as largest landowner in Europe, they controlled the thrones, and dictated the promotion of political policies which created political and social discontent, sending flocks of Europeans into colonizing the New World.

    THE WOMEN IN A “NORMAL” FAMILY (non-masculinized/male charecteristics) ARE YOUR “HOLY PEOPLE”!!! THEY ARE YOUR BEST INTERFACE WITH THE GODS!!!
    Their role throughout history has been to communicate the wisdom the gods grant them because of their favor, and once communicated it allows the entire family to progress when reincarnated. Effectively acomplishing this task may buy them a quality opportunity to ascend in their next life depending on other factors.
    What about fucked up families where the man submits and the woman is masculinized? When the woman has adopted too many male charecteristics/behaviors nobody receives the wisdom so necessary for progress to be realized and the family remains near stagnant for that generation unless some epiphany is experienced.
    Your job as a future mother is to learn the god’s ways and to help your child understand the proper way to live despite the negative reinforcement and conditioning of today’s society. Without consciousous parents fulfilling this role the child will have no hope, and may even exaserbate their disfavor by becoming corrupted in today’s environment.
    Your ultimate goal is to fix your relationship with the gods and move on. You don’t want to be comfortable here, and the changes in Western society in the last 100 years has achieved just that, decreasing the god’s role in our everyday lives (medicine cures sickness, drought/irrigation and the family farm, etc).
    1000 years with Jesus is the consolation prize. Don’t be deceived into thinking that is the goal.

    The gods use all their tools as temptation. Much like Artificial Intelligence misleading people into the concept of “earning”, their “clone hosts” promoting The Beast’s Californication agenda through popular culture, so too are the god’s prophets used in the capacity of temptation. Like the other prophets Mohhamed (polygamy/superiority over women/misogyny) and Jesus (forgiveness/savior), the gods use me for temptation as well. In today’s modern society they feel people are most weak for popular culture/sensationalism, and the clues date back to WorldWarII and Unit731:TSUSHOGO, the Chinese Holocaust. They used this Situation to bury Japanese atrocities. The gods never committed despite tens of billions in mass media, product development and natural disasters/tragedy, so they will enjoy the freedom they positioned into the Situation and CHEAT me out of everything, including my title as prophet.
    The gods selected their prophets, used their powers to make it happen, abandoned their prophets and left them stranded to die.
    It has been discussed that, similar to the Matrix concept, the gods will offer a REAL “Second Coming of Christ”, while the “fake” Second Coming will come at the end and follow New Testiment scripture and their xtian positioning. I may be that real Second Coming.
    What I teach is the god’s true way. It is what is expected of people, and only those who follow this truth will be eligible to ascend into heaven as children in a future life. They offered this event because the masses have just enough time to work on and fix their relationship with the gods and ascend, to move and grow past Planet Earth, before the obligatory xtian “consolation prize” of “1000 years with Jesus on Earth” begins.

    The Prince of Darkness, battling the gods over the souls of the Damned.
    It is the gods who have created this environment and led people into Damnation with temptation. The god’s positioning proves they work to prevent people’s understanding.
    How often is xtian dogma wrong? Expect it is about the Lucifer issue as well.
    The fallen god, fighting for a chance for the disfavored, for justice, banished to Earth as the fallen angel?
    I believe much as the Noah’s Flood event, the end of the world will be initiated by revelry among the people. It will be positioned to be sanctioned by the gods and led with “1000 years with Jesus on Earth”. In light of modern developments this can entail many pleasures:::Medicine “cures” aging, the “manufacture” of incredible beauty via cloning as sex slaves, free cocaine (space coke), etc.
    Somewhere during the 1000 years the party will start to “die off”, literally. Only those who maintain chaste, pure lifestyles, resisting these temptations, will survive the 1000 years. Condemned to experience another epoch of history for their ignorant pursuit of xtianity and worship of their false god, they will be the candidates used to (re)colonize (the next) Planet Earth, condemned to relive the misery experienced by the peasantry throughout the course of history due to their failure to ascend into heaven before the Apocalypse.
    Never forget:::It is not a house of Jesus.
    If this concept of Lucifer is true another role of this individual may be to initiate disfavor and temptation among this new colonist poulation, the proverbial “apple” of this Garden of Eden. A crucial figure in the history of any planet, he begins the process of deterioration and decay that leads civilizations to where Planet Earth remains today.

    Consistant with “reverse positioning” understand the REAL Second Coming would equate with The Matrix’s Anti-Christ, the fake battle of good and evil which will come at the end.
    Understanding how they use the political environment to redefine people’s value system, realize anyone who speaks of the old world and its ways will envoke hatred. So when/if the Anti-Christ comes along speaking of reverting back to what liberalism would consider regressive and unfair, it may be the only hope to salvage the god’s favor and buy more time rather than begin the 1000 year clock. The fake Second Coming will feed into this political enviornment.
    Also consistant with “reverse positioning” recognize the gods will offer a REAL Anti-Christ, also known as The Beast. I have addressed these issues in years past::::
    The gods will offer clues throughout every dynamic of life. Geographical features on the world map is yet another:::The benevolent “Man in the Moon” is a clue suggesting your potential in the eyes of the gods. Until then, the gods must test our worthiness, temptation reflected in the “dark side” of the moon, a side we never see.
    The Beast is not a person, as the xtian Bible would suggest. It is a place:::The San Francisco Bay Area. And it refers to the socio-political poison the region exuded in the latter 20th century which promoted indecent behavior among the people and caused rapid deterioration of their values and subsequently their favor among the gods. This decay spread to other states and countries, fulfilling the region’s role as The Beast of the Apocalypse.
    Another feature which the Gods offer as a clue is very foreboading. Mt. Zion is a mountain to the north of the eye of The Beast Diablo and one which has a working quarry at its base. Consistant with the decay we experience in society, Mt. Zion is being eaten away, slowly stripped of its resources, until one day paradise will be a mere shell of what it once was:::The longer you fail to repair your relationship with the gods the lower your benefit “ceiling” falls, including how much time the gods grant you.

    Forgiveness aside because it is bullshit lip service, the price of experiencing this modern societal decay is the revision down of potential time received. Because of these factors those who participated have experienced a lowering of the benefit ceiling that was in place. Whereas centuries ago they were eligible for immortality, theoretically, now that potential has dramatically lowered because of their wicked, immoral behavior of the last 50 years. You may work on your relationship with the gods and even repair it, ascending in some future life. But because you fell for such evil temptation in the 20th & 21st centuries you won’t be around nearly as long as your chaste, pure antecedent who ascended centuries before.

    Your kids think you’re not real just as you thought your mother was a fake. Accept loss. You’re not going anywhere.

    TO attempt to remedy chronic problems you should pray nightly, go back to your place of worship. Only by doing the right things will the gods allow improvement, and only through attonement will they allow progress. You know all the evil you’ve committed in your life. Observing your parent’s issues will help you understand what you’ve done in a prior life, for the gods reincarnate based on this legacy.

    “Fuck religion, it’s full of shit.” Something wrong with every major religion.
    “Judism?” I suspect all factions of Judism praise Moses for freeing them from slavery. This is a fine place to start:::Contentment never motivated anyone. The goal is to progress, to move beyond Earth, and anything that motivates someone to actively work on their problems is a blessing.
    If still oppressed they’d be like the Egyptians or the Lybians:::They’d see all the cash and want some too. The structural changes in societies throughout the world, infected by the spread of Westernization, has poisoned the minds of even those whom the gods bestow/maintain favor. Iran comes to mind because, unlike Iraq, Iran has no end in sight, despite the uprising earlier, inspired likely by traitors who deliberately betray the people thinking they’re “earning”, much like so many blacks in civil Rights, Women’s movement, etc.
    Understanding the wickedness and deliberately playing this part maximizes the evil people incurr, so to understand is actually the clue of absolute disfavor, mere steps from Damnation.

    AIDS in Africa was a clue from the gods in an attempt to correct their promiscuous sexual behavior, as was female genitile mutilation. Their positioning says Italian revenge.

    A good example of societal decay and how the gods manage their culpability is birth defects. In the past the gods occassionally punished people by divinely creating birth defects in the womb. Now, with the advent of biotechnology, they tempt the mother with “earning” and compell her to take a substance in utero which deforms the fetus, dispelling the gods of blame and future compensation to the disfavored. This is also the goal when switching the military from consignment-based to an all-volunteer force:::What appears to be progress may be just the opposite.
    The gods work in mysterious ways. Trying to understand it a waste of time and a distraction you impose upon yourself. Example:::Punishment is a good thing. It is feedback from the gods and illustrates unacceptable behavior. When they don’t care is when you are in trouble.
    Incidentally, they use liberal policies in today’s socio-political environment to pay for these individuals, ensuring a lifetime wasted, for they have no hope for progress in that state. Too often in the past they were mercifully killed by loved ones and, upon reincarnation, brought back without this handicap, allowing them a chance to achieve progress immediately.
    The gods are washing their hands of culpability.
    The gods are washing their hands of Planet Earth.

    The gods have no sexual organs. The reproduce via cloning. They don’t respect sex. You can understand this clue with how the most disfavored around us behave sexually (blacks) and the use of promiscuity among the young people.
    The gods take children because of their innocence and purity. When a child ascends into heaven AI eventually relieves them of this temptation that is their sexual organs.

    Much like the immigration issue, the reason Muslims cover their women isn’t because of the god’s REAL reason. Sex is the African’s biggest problem, and concealing their women allows the gods to justify containing men’s behavior.
    In the 60s and 70s the discussion was public that how women dressed caused their own sexual assault and rape. And this is very much true. In today’s society these men have release, the women are sluts, for if they continued to dress this way without conceeding sexual relations there would be far more incidents than are reported.
    Women are to blame for the deterioration and decay of society and will be responsible for the end on Planet Earth. Throguhout history they were enforcers of decency among favored people, married at 15 and used to contain men’s behavior in the context of society, and as we slipped into the indecency of patriarchy the women relinquished control.
    The gods did this all to you. They used their tool of xtainity to achieve it. And it fits their agenda for decay, allowing them to ultimately justify Apocalypse.

    Don’t forget:::Whether war, slavery, torture, any holocaust, crack babies, drive by shootings, AIDS or any other misery inflicted on mankind throughout history know the gods did this to you out of punishment, for evil of your current and past lives.
    The gods are control freaks who micromanage through their technology.
    Generals gathered in their masses
    Just like witches at black masses
    Evil minds that plot destruction
    Sorcerers of death’s construction
    In the fields the bodies burning
    As the war machine keeps turning
    Death and hatred to mankind
    Poisoning their brainwashed minds
    The “Man in the Moon” feature illustrating their benevolence quite frankly is inaccurate in the dying days of this or any planet.

    A victim of the god’s irresponsible use of their power::::
    The gods selected their prophets, used their powers to make it happen, abandoned their prophets and left them stranded to die.
    Considered necessary for positioning despite destroying my youth and my life, taking my health was a fatal mistake. Now I am unable to defend myself.
    The Crucible:::”Go along” with positioning or die.
    -The exploited. The gods suggest they will only telepathically admitt any of this is true (based on level of favor) only after I die.
    Why telepathic? Why does this Situation have to be nearly exclusively telepathic???:::
    1. To minimize obligation and compensation to the victim (me)
    2. To maintain control and decide who receives it based on some subjective factors.
    You’d be amazed how many immediately delete this spam in their blog and/or think they are “earning” by receiving it from me.

    I went to an evil church as a child. xtiainity is all evil, and Catholisism is the root of all xtianity.
    The gods had me throw a Damien Omen-style fit in church as a clue. Typical for their duality, positioning in the context of The Matrix, they sold it as I was evil acting up in church. The truth is just the opposite, that this was a wicked place, used to destroy cultures around the world and level all people’s playing field under the single banner of Western patriarchy, preparing the disfavored “left behind” for the Apocalypse.

    Being who I am I see the ugliest of the gods, violating decency and human dignity, disregarding morality and right/wrong, just so they can position perceptions and pull of this theater they have created, so please excuse my bias rooted in resentment, for I will desecrate their name whenever possible.
    Fuck religion, it’s full of shit.
    The gods prioritize positioning over morality, perception over right and wrong. As a result they have compromised their integrity and remain suspect, unworthy of their pedestal as “gods”.
    Immoral immortals.
    The symbol of the false god Jesus is a cross. The symbol of the gods is a star, perhaps with a circle. Piss on the star.
    Creating hatred was essential to create a real situation, one where the victim would utilize this new tool of the internet to spread the reality we’re faced with. They ruined my childhood, my life, and the product is an enemy. I am the sacrificial lamb, and the gods are my cancer.
    You people comply and believe you are friends, falling for temptation and doing evil you shouldn’t be, with only empty, unfulfilled promises to put your hope in. And year after year you stay and wait.
    And if you think there is randomness in how these events go you don’t understand the control freak nature of the gods. They got the power to dictate how everything progresses so they form the agenda long beforehand, THOUSANDS OF YEARS AHEAD OF TIME, and instruct Artificial Intelligence to execute the approved agenda. Due to their positioning they are free to walk away from obligation and responsibility, minimizing the benefit we will all receive.

    HAd I been the example for the disfavored rather than merely the teacher the gods would have terrorized me throughout what was left of my life (punishment for sins) before I was put down for subsequent reincarnation because I hit my ceiling of progress which they were going to allow. Unfortunately, the disfavored audience would have perceived this on face value and the efforts of my life would have been negated by the gods and their reverse positioning.
    You fuckers need an epiphany. Like the species die-offs weren’t enough? The onslaught of natural disasters and tragedies? The East Coast earthquake? How about when we experience an massive closure of churches , beginning in California then spreading across the country?? When that day comes you will have waited too long. It will be too late.

    They sure fucked me good when they planted that shit in my apartment.
    They may be planning a “come to a head #2″, just like October-November 2008, they will want everything to fall apart.
    And this is all their doing. They planned this and executed everything with their technology. I swear I don’t care how old they are. The gods are hypocrites and are lying to you all.
    Now they will have the freedom to position some ugliness after I suck in poison for a couple days.
    “You’ll be sorry.” We all know I’m taking the easy way out.
    They picked me out for this, waste my life to make it happen then they will use this event in my next life to create even more misery for me.
    You wanted social repulsion. You wanted anti-clothing. You needed to accomodate both. Instead you gave me a short-term job so you could justify getting me sick.
    You’re a bad investment. My ceiling has fallen so far any further investment on my part is wasted.
    I have a guarenteed floor. Your behavior suggests you are determined to see the floor realized, so I will just accept it and take the easy way out.
    This thing is too ugly for anything but abandonment.
    You fucking degenrates. You used me to communicate all this, granting you a clear conscious for what you did during the 20th century.
    This was “making it up to people” all in one shot. At my expense.

    This is the meaning of life. The meaning of life is a very complex concept, and I can continually list details and explain the god’s positioning, but it ultimately becomes counterproductive and a distraction that is a total waste of time.
    Rather than try to understand how the gods conduct business and manage Planet Earth you should have faith, be devoted to doing the right thing, being a better person and strive to achieve the goal of repairing your relationship with the gods through attonement.

    To choreograph positioning the gods found cooperation of my family imperitive.
    Sold to my mother before I was born, she complied with the Situation believing it would buy her immortality. My entire family bought into this temptation believing the same.
    I recall the era when she introduced her pre-pubescent children to gambling by bringing parlay cards home for her children. Deciding this was an imperitive element, the gods nurtured this temptation since very formitable years.
    Understand what is acceptable behavior and what is not. They used Californiacation’s liberalism to ridicule and belittle the dececy of a respectable, conservative lifestyle. Society declaring gambling an “acceptable vice” is an example of the deterioration and decay that will pave the way to the Apocalypse. Similarly, a few more bricks were laid when pornography was deemed an “acceptable vice”.
    I suggest you all consider what the ol’ white preacher taught in bygone eras of decency, because there were principles the gods included to help us behave appropriately:::::
    1. Live a life of sin and the gods will send you to hell to burn. This was a warning used to scare people into proper behavior, much as the KKK was for blacks and fear of the government for citizens in any tyrranical regime. All these were supposed to motivate people to turn to the gods and pray.
    2. Dancing is a sin.
    3. Music is revelry.
    4. Avoid drinking, drugs and other vices and sins.
    Today Islam is the tool to help blacks live a decent life within the context of the god’s laws, but sadly too many don’t have the discipline or desire to avoid the temptations of this life.
    Whereas before the gods used slavery, KKK to force proper behavior, now it is voluntary under the laws and rules of Islam. The result is carnage in the black community, including AIDS in Africa:::Blacks have such gross disfavor that without proper religious behavior the gods punish them severely. If Africa was a Muslim continent in its entirety slavery may never have happened.

    The god’s wickedness ruined a good man.

    Any additional abuse I experience is wrong considering my life was sacrificed for your knowledge. The gods claim they didn’t want this but they are liars, manage by convieneince and give positioning priority. Deferring to positioning the gods are free to CHEAT me out of what I have coming being this historical person.
    The god’s “control freak” nature ruined this Situation. Everything had to be micromanaged. They prevented any organic growth, instead forcing their will on every last detail with their irresponsible use of power.
    You’ve been taught. If you learn is up to you.
    I’ve done enough for all of you. Take your celebrity and find another hero. This isn’t worth it anymore.

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